Are you afraid God is about to judge you? David was.
In Psalm 6 he says: “do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath.” (6:1) He goes on to describe a the physical and spiritual pain he is. He’s “faint… his bones are in agony. His soul is in deep anguish,” (6:2-3).
The deep fear and pain he feels is physical, emotional, spiritual. But then he asks: “Save me because of your unfailing love.” (Psalm 6:4)
One of the root causes of sin or mistakes we make is fear. But God’s unfailing and “perfect love casts out fear.” (1 John 4:18)
Rather than looking at the sins you may be committing over and over and over – ask yourself: “What is it that is driving me to sin? What am I afraid of? What am I trying to escape from?”
The truth is we do not need to run any longer. Escape is not an option. When we take matters into our own hands we make things worse.
But when we confess our fears in God’s presence he “hears our weeping” (6:8) “he hears our cries, he accepts our prayers” (6:9) and he responds with overwhelming force (6:10) to cast out those very fears from our hearts.
From Psalm 6:
Are you honest with God? Truly honest with him? The good news is you can be!
We feel the pressure to be perfect. And we feel the pressure to be perfect with the most Perfect One. We try to rise to the occasion. We try to fit in with the company we surround ourselves with. But in doing so we leave our emotions, our problems, our imperfections behind. We leave ourselves, with all of our cracks, behind. The price for this self-betrayal is arrogance and confusion: we delude ourselves into thinking we actually are the mask we put on and our pains and problems only become more confusing for us which with to grapple. All that’s left is a dull ache that bubbles to the surface every now and then.
But praise be to God this does not need to happen! Take off the mask! Show the real hideousness that’s underneath. You can cry out to him in blatant honesty:
“Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint; heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in deep anguish. How long, LORD, how long?” (Psalm 6:2-3)
As deep as your sorrows and sins may go – they can’t bottom out against the depth of God’s love for you. The depth of God’s love is deeper than our problems and our pain. His love goes as deep (and deeper still) than the grave itself! Not even David could have understood this: “Among the dead no one proclaims your name. Who praises you from the grave?” (Psalm 6:5)
Jesus Christ “firstborn of the dead” (Colossians 1:18) is the name we proclaim! God will not abandon us to the grave (Psalm 16:10). He is not the God of the dead but of the living (Luke 20:38)! Don’t tidy it up – pour it out!
You’re probably overwhelmed right now.
In fact, you probably woke up feeling overwhelmed. But God is just a prayer away – any time, day or night. David entered God’s presence “in the morning” (Psalm 5:3). Would your morning be different if you consistently did the same? I know mine would. David asked the Lord “Listen to my words” (5:1). Pay attention Lord! I’m talking to you – please, I’m begging you! But more than that, Lord, please “consider my lament” (5:1). The Hebrew word used is used elsewhere in Deuteronomy and 1+2 Samuel to refer to “discerning or ruminating.”
Meaning that God doesn’t just settle for what you tell him. He considers the root cause of your pain.
Praise God for that! Often I’m a mystery to myself – especially my problems. I’m like a child that’s only distantly aware of the fact that I’ve hurt myself, been hurt, or is hurting others. Lord Jesus have mercy on me! Please, Holy Spirit, “help me in my weakness” (Romans 8:26-27).
Take some time today and “take refuge” in the one who “spreads his protection” over you (5:11). You are only a prayer away from entering God’s throne room.